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1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I can't remember what my resolution was... this year was a write off!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
someone who i worked with... but not very close to

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes... can people please stop dying? (I think i have been saying this for 3 years now)

5. What countries did you visit?
I holidayed in Scotland this year. Log cabins, cottages and Outer Hebrides.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
I would like to feel close to my friends and to see them all the time

7. What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
24th January when my Dad died... that day i felt like my world disintregrated.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
surviving

9. What was your biggest failure?
not distinguishing between anger and hate earlier, and not letting go of my anger... Yes I never learned that lesson. Also I let my friends down by dealing with stuff badly and taking some of it out on them

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
possible celiacs disease and a seizure

11. What was the best thing you bought?
my hangbag and my furry slippers and pajamas

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Joe for standing by me when it got to hard for everyone else.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
friends who dont stand by you when you need them most

14. Where did most of your money go?
clothes, food and debt

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
nothing this year.. without sounding emo i was happy to survive as it was a rough year. AGAIN

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
Queen
Cold Play - The Scientist
Dashboard confessionals - Stolen

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? no idea
iii. richer or poorer? same

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
seeing my friends and getting out the house

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
moping

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with my family and Joe

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
more in love... yes

23. How many one-night stands?
none - im a good girl

24. What was your favorite TV program?
grays anatomy rocked my world!!!!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no... just miss people

26. What was the best book you read?
Snuff

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
old music

28. What did you want and get?
nothing i dont think... maybe ugg boots

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Juno

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I saw my fiends for dinner and had a lovely evening

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
people not dying, people standing by you when its horrible

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
tight jeans and a top... some vintage 50s

34. What kept you sane?
my mummy, joe and mike... mike always tells it how it is

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
that new G&G model

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
i refuse to get into it cause i will just get all frustrated not being able to change anything

37. Who did you miss?
my dad, my friends, my grandad but most of all mike

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Kat

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
never leave anything undone... cause who knows if you will ever beable to put it right in the future and dont let anger get in the way of whats mibi the most percious thing to you.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?"

Current Location:
bedroom
im feeling....:
meh
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1 year, 7 hours and 17 minuts..
im feeling....:
christmas!!!
i can hear...:
kate bust - running up that hill
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1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
got a degree... learned to swim and started learning piano.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
it was to do well at uni and i got a 2:1 honers and got into my masters degree so i guess i achieved it! i dont wanna change anything i do cause im happy with me i just have more things i wanna achieve. hmmm top 3 would be (1) get PHD (2) pay off debt (3) CHINA

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
yes... can people please stop dying?

5. What countries did you visit?
none this year for the first year in AGES! need to make up this year, if i find free time

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
more money, more time with friends and a *****

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
23rd june - when all my hard work finally paid off. and the day my grandad died... that day i felt like my world disintregrated.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
getting my degree and being accepted for my masters. also suprising myself and being so dedicated and working so hard for what i want.

9. What was your biggest failure?
not distinguishing between anger and hate earlier, and not letting go of my anger. tho mibi it was just something i was ment to go thro... who knows mibi it will work out for the better!

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
mild kidney infection and pancritis

11. What was the best thing you bought?
gym membership - i love it!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
matt as he never lets me down ever.. and mike for everything he does for me.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
no one really appaled me, depressed me... a few. tho i refuse to dwell on the negative.

14. Where did most of your money go?
i dont know.. i dont think i even had any to begin with. COURSE FEES ARE A BITCH

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
nothing this year.. without sounding emo i was happy to survive as it was a rough year. I have however set up loads of things for me to be excited about next year... china, PHd, france and mibi even some money to play with

16. What song will always remind you of 2006?
snow patrol - chasing cars
bad day
paul simon - you can call me al

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? bit of both
ii. thinner or fatter? no idea
iii. richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
seeing my friends and i never got to travil which really upset me

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
nothing...

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with my family and closest friends

22. Did you fall in love in 2006?
i was inlove at the start of the year...

23. How many one-night stands?
none - im a good girl

24. What was your favorite TV program?
grays anatomy rocked my world

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no... just miss people

26. What was the best book you read?
the exciled, the beloved, dry and memoirs of a giesha

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
we are scientists were listened to a lot

28. What did you want and get?
to get a 2:1 or higher in my degree

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
pride and preduce and crank

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i saw my family for dinner, went out with friends and had a really good day.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
if he had chose me instead of her ha! and people not dying

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
jeans and vest

34. What kept you sane?
my mummy.. shes just amazing. and mike always keeps me grounded.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
SETH - i need him

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
i refuse to get into it cause i will just get all frustrated not being able to change anything

37. Who did you miss?
skibs, my grandad, lil

38. Who was the best new person you met?
will and james from school have been very ncie

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006:
never leave anything undone... cause who knows if you will ever beable to put it right in the future and dont let anger get in the way of whats mibi the most percious thing to you.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"All that I am
All that I ever was
It’s here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

im feeling....:
nostalgic nostalgic
i can hear...:
modest mouse - float on
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Oh the littlelovex outside is frightful
But the fire is so delightful
And since we've no place to go,
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.

Let It Snow
from the Christmas Song Generator.

Get your own song :
i can hear...:
let it snow!!
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- spiders in my bed
- work wakeing you up at 8am on your morning off
- course fees
- fathers
- alchol
- philosophy
- not having the food i want when i want it
Current Location:
bedroom
im feeling....:
hungry hungry
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Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting My time doing things I Wanna do?
But it hurts when you Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good Enough for you
I can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect

I try not to think About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be My hero?
All the days You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t Care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright

‘Cuz we lost it all Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect

Nothing’s gonna change The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be Perfect

Current Location:
bedroom as always
im feeling....:
urgh
i can hear...:
emo music
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. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships?
nope only 2

2. Have you had your birthday?
yep it was fun

3. Been to church?
haha no

4. Cried yet?
a little... haha

6. Pulled an all nighter?
tooooooooooooooooooooo meny. god danm finals

7. Drank Starbucks?
yep loads!

8. Went shopping?
a few times... a girls gotta shop!

9. Been camping?
no but i should before it gets to cold!

10. Been to the beach?
of course.... i love the beach!

11. Bought something for over $200?
nope cause im a pooooooooor student!

12. Met someone?
yeah.

13. Been out of state?
no this is the longest time ive been trapped in Scotland for years.. i need to escape!

14. Gone Snowboarding?
urgh NO... i will make it tho i WILL!!!

13.. Hugged someone?
:) yes

14. slept in someone elses bed?
yep

15.. Snuck someone over?
no.. maybe... no

15.. Snuck out of your own house?
no im a big girl now i dont need to!

16.. Gotten drunk?
gotten sober :)

17.. Lied?
only little ones.. i dont like lies

18. Gone over your cell phone bill?
i dont have one.. im not aloud.

19. Spent over £20 on your phone bill?
urgh yeh i buy LOADS of phone credit when i have money

20. Drove somewhere?
yes a godzillion places

21.Done something you regret?
yes... not sharing tho

Last Thing you bought?
the list as andrews pretty face is in it

Last Person you hugged?
andrew

Last Person to call you?
some fuckwit customer at work

Last time you took a shower?
today

When was the last time you felt stupid?
i feel stuiped every day as im not at uni anymore. i think my brain is gonna shrivel up now its not being used.

Who was the last person you danced with?
cant remember... mibi sven a few weeks back to paul simon!!

Who did you last yell at?
skibs a few months back...

What did you do today?
i awoke, got ready, drove to mcdonalds where i ordered oats so simple, talked to Scott who made my oats so simple and works in mcdonalds, drove to work, worked for 2 hours, pretended to work for 7 hours, became ill (i got syphilis of the throat), had soup made for me by a sympathetic chef at work, skived the last 2 hours of my shift by calling my mother, kaura and andrew and reading my book. drove home and now im talking to my sister and doing this shitty quiz as im brain dead. gold star to whoever read all that!

TEN FACTS

01. Hometown:
Edinburgh

02. Natural hair color:
light brown/ very dark dirty blond

04. Hair style:
long, red

05. Eye color:
ocean blue (according to sam)

06. Height:
5'6

07. Pets:
2 immortal gold fish

8. Mood:
sleepy, grumpy and ill

9. best friend:
lil, laura, mike,

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

01. Have you ever been in love:
yeah

02. Do you believe in love:
of course!

03. Why did your LAST relationship fail:
cos i probally should have never dated him in the first place

04. ??
ok...

05. Have you ever broken someone's heart:
yeh it was worse than having mine broken in some ways

06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?
yes... well not my bestest bestest but very close friend yes. bad move.

07. Have you ever loved someone but never told them:
yes

08. Are you afraid of commitment?:
i dont seem to be anymore... go me! perhalps it just depends on the person.

09: Would you ever date one of your exes?
haha i am! and i have a few times ooops

10. Have you ever had a secret admirer:
no i want one danm it!

TEN THINGS

01. Love or lust:
love

02. Liquor or beer:
liquor

03. Night or day:
depends..

04. One night stands or relationships?
relationships

05. Tv or internet:
both!!!!!

06. Pepsi or Coke:
coke! pepsi is EVIL!!!!

7. Wild night out or romantic night in:
wild romantic?! i dunno im not picking i want both.

08. Black or white:
black tho i do now have a white vest too.

TEN EMOTIONS

01. Are you missing someone right now:
yes

02. Are you happy?
yeah..mostly

03. Are you talking to anyone right now:
nope

04. Are you eating:
i sooooooooooo wish i was

05. Are you german:
nope

06. Are you Irish:
nope

07. Are you French:
no

08. Are you Italian:
no!

09. Are your parents still married?
they were never married to begin with

10. Do you like someone right now:
mr andrew

Current Location:
bedroom
im feeling....:
ill
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i got a 70 point word in scrabble
Current Location:
bedroom
im feeling....:
all over the place
i can hear...:
none
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how mental is the weather?? it makes me wanna don my welly boots and go play and jump in puddles...
but perhalps i'll stay in my shorts and vest and play computer games and watch loads of dvds and order food in... mmm a day in bed!
much fun has been had this week...
drank up auther seat with donald and lucy, had fun at the beach and a yummy bbq, went on a family day trip to the boarders, celebrated lils 21st, had a very nice boy come visit me, visited old friends in glasgow, played football, watched england get kicked out the world cup :) , was taken to the cinema by matt, finally finally had a wannaburger (yum yum)amoungst other things,
im upset camping was canceled due to this weather :( i was so excited about it...
hopfully make it next week!!

xxx

Current Location:
bedroom
im feeling....:
happy happy
i can hear...:
none
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so today im left with this complete feeling of emptiness...
handed back all my books to uni
cleared out my locker
said good bye to everyone for the last time
had reality hit me like a fucking atomic bomb
learnt another big lesson in the game of life - dont let anger blind you!
packed away alot of things i should have packed away 6 months ago
bla bla bla

one day i'll get it right

but untill then time to start my life over... but first i think i'll have a bath and read my book

x

im feeling....:
lonely lonely
i can hear...:
army of two
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---------- RED ----------

Closest red thing to you?
red bit on my can of mountain dew

Last thing to make you angry?
Erm....I've been quite calm recently...

Do you have a temper?
Yes.

Are you a fan of romance?
Yep

---------- ORANGE ----------

Closest orange thing to you?
sherbet straws

Do you like to burn things?
hehe yeh its fun tho i dont do it much these days

Dress up for Halloween?
course

Are you usually a warm-hearted person?
i hope so - id hate not to be

Do you have anything against redheaded ppl?
No some of my family are red heads

Are you usually full of energy?
Usually, yes. If I've had enough sleep unlike this week

---------- YELLOW ----------

Closest yellow thing to you?
cany see any yellow

The happiest time[s] of your life?
theres a few, meeting my sister, lying on the banks of a river on the way home from eurpoe (infact they full 4 days), a few intamite moments, my 21st birthday family dinner

Favorite holiday?
gambia/valencia

What makes you smile?
people

Are you a coward?
i dont think so anymore.... im getting good at doing what i need ot go! go me

Do you burn or tan?
burn god danm it

---------- GREEN ----------

Closest green thing to you?
mountain dew can again

Do you care about the enviromment?
yep stupid not to

Are you jealous of anyone right now?
Nope its the worst feeling in the world and ive decided to give it up

Are you a lucky person?
yes!

Do you always want what you can't have?
only sometimes... right now i do but im sure it will pass

Do you like being outdoors?
yeh i love it - tho im not a fan of the cold - it puts me off

Are you Irish?
Nope

---------- BLUE ----------

Closest blue thing to you?
my eyes

Are you good at calming people down?
Sometimes I can be but sometimes I just enrage the arguement even more.

Do you like the sea?
Yeah its amazing

what was the last thing that made you cry?
a boy

Are you a logical thinker?
i have no idea - would that not be boring?

Can you sleep easily?
depends - normally. tho ive found it hard the past 6 months... normally im up till 4am watching dvds and reading then up again at 8am

---------- PURPLE ----------

Last purple thing you saw?
my mummys bed

Like being treated to expensive things?
im a girl of couse

Do you like mysterious things?
yes they can be fasinating

Favorite type of chocolate?
they shell and fish shaped chocolates with praline inside

Ever met anyone in royalty?
yep the queen monther

Are you creative?
nope not really i wish i was more scientific minded

---------- PINK ----------

Closest pink thing to you?
a bouncy ball

Do you like sweet things?
yes

Like play-fighting?
hahaha love it espically when i win

Are you sensitive?
yes i wish i was less sensitive

---------- WHITE ----------

Closest white thing to you?
my desk

Would you say you're innocent?
i dunno probally not

Always try to keep the peace?
nope - tho i think i will try more

Do you like to play in the snow?
If I'm all wrapped up and noone throws it in my FACE!

Are you afraid of going to the doctors or dentist?
nope - well i dont realy like the dentist when its root canal - i like soemone to hold me hand

---------- BLACK ----------

Closest black thing to you?
my keyboard

Ever enjoy hurting people?
No, not ever.

Are you sophisticated or silly?
I like to think sophisticated haha

Would you like to go to space?
totally

Do you have a lot of secrets?
Not a lot.

What is your favorite color?
green

Does the color you wear affect your mood?
I don't think so...

Current Location:
bedrom
im feeling....:
sad sad
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so just when things start to go good....... another shitty ass thing happens.
i think im back off to hide in my bed!

Mr Sven...

your one of my best friends in the whole world and im here for you no matter what any time of day/night!!!!
i love you so god danm much
sending you all the love and hugs in the world today - plus a wee bit more!

your wife xxxxx

Current Location:
svens flat
i can hear...:
sven singing in the shower
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does anyone know how to temporarly disable/delete solitare from my pc?

finals countdown: 15 study days left

and all i can do is play this stupid game..........

i need to study so badly! i also need to stop my mind going crazy with fucked up thoughts!

grrr to today and its unproductivity

im feeling....:
stressed stressed
i can hear...:
we are scientists
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so i won tickets to t in the park :)
happy happy vicky
much thanks to a mr stu xxxxxxxx
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my liver hurts x
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bay bayb baby tongiht was the fuckin bomb
wewnt our to drink with the ryand and donald and boy the best nothg was had by all
i would upsdate on what happened but i font actyally knoe
i emember oilet p[aper snd shops ans aftershock and pool and donald missin g the funnestest shot ever and falling over in the garages and thats it
i miss certain people st times liek theese xxxx
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COME DRINK FREE TEQUILLA AND EAT FREE LOLLY POPS AND BE MERRY WITH MISFITS

its a fun fun night folks!!!

xxxx
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Maybe I should........stop pretending

I love.......my family and my friends always

I don't understand........boys, actually, one in particular.

I lost my.........phone a while ago - that pissed me off!

People would say that I'm........the koolest girl they ever met!

Sex is........fun

Love is.......the best and worst thing in thw world

Somewhere, someone is.......drinking mountain dew and im jelous of them cause i want some just now

I will always.......remember!

Forever is.......i dont know anymore

I never want to........grow old

I think the current President is.........a useless twat

When I wake up in the morning I........hit the snooze button and go back to sleep!

Life is full of.......fun and games, you just gotta look in the right places

My past........is what got me here, most of it was fun i believe

I get annoyed when........boys lie

I wish........we'll now thats be telling, it wont come true if i tell you. i wish something was different thats all

My dog is.......not real

Tomorrow I'm going to.........study at uni and then hopfully go play bingo

I have low tolerance for people who.......lie

If I had a million dollars I would.......look after my mummy and family

Sometimes I want to.......be less stressed

Current Location:
bedroom
im feeling....:
ill
i can hear...:
none
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why is sven svenson not online???

thats not jazz... not jazz at all!

im feeling....:
drunk drunk
i can hear...:
deftones - but whats the point without sven??
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ok is anyone else out there addicted to lauras diary???
i swear its more addictive than despriate housewifes!!!!!

x

im feeling....:
hungover
i can hear...:
wildhearts
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